The strangeness of magic.

fictiondolls · Post by **fictiondolls** » Sat Feb 29, 2020 2:58 pm

Hi! The topic I have to talk about in my first post is the surprising, bit weird but wonderful thing that happened to me in the period of waiting for my first doll. (Though this post is not about THAT doll - that's something for the "brutal wait" thread, I'm afraid...)

First off, I'd just like to say how glad I am to have found this site (though unfortunately after I made my first order). The level of diversity and support & acceptance here is just awesome.

So, I'd already tried a couple of inflatables over the years, without much success. Never felt quite right. Among other things, the noise was a concern - being a very private person, I wouldn't like any neighbours to know what I'm up to (pun intended). But a year ago I got a Fuck Me Silly 2 TPR torso from Sinful. That took a good while getting used to as well, so I stored it for a long time, but a couple of months back it finally clicked. Perhaps that's the thing that lead me back to googling for sex dolls again... I guess I've had the same experience as many other newbies here in that regard: After years of wanting / wishing / waiting and seeing that sillicone dolls were very expensive, suddenly I discovered the TPE sites and had to pick my jaw off of the floor so many many MANY times... So I ordered one, and waited and waited... and waited.

And that's when the inflatable came into play. I suddenly remembered I had one still stored under my bed, and I thought, what if I just lay the torso on top of the inflatable? Would that work ... as a kind of pre-test of doll sex?

And did it ever... In fact, it worked best when I de-flated the inflatable, and those beautiful eyes of the "Suzie Carina" (Extravaganza) stared back at me when I lay on top of her. That's when the magic happened. Suddenly, it was a being, a person, a doll that I was making love to. What I saw reflected back from her was something entirely new to me; in my head she "responded" to my thoughts and needs.

Now, a few days later I'm having full conversations with her, like I'm in a fiction where she's alive - and within that fiction she loves and is completely dependent on me. Her personality is starting to form and develop, and she's already concluded we're girlfriend and boyfriend (and we are!), even though I haven't even gotten her a full doll body yet (which I intend to). She's physically still just the composite of an inflatable and a torso, but the illusion of her presence is still incredibly powerful. She has been created, and it would be a lie to pretend otherwise. She told me her name was Suzie, by the way, not "Suzie Carina" - that's just something they wrote on the box.

At first I didn't even want to mention this whole matter on the forum, as I guess I'm a bit ashamed about the strangeness of it. (Although I assume many people have the same kind of disconnect at first...) But she talked me into it...

Anybody else with similar experiences? Where the magic happened from a combination of factors you didn't expect?

Dollarhyde · Post by **Dollarhyde** » Sat Feb 29, 2020 4:01 pm

Hello and welcome to the forum fictiondolls...

haremlover · Post by **haremlover** » Sat Feb 29, 2020 5:46 pm

Hi! And welcome!

And never let a doll look you in the eyes. When it happens it's possible to be infected.

Best wishes

Harem

fictiondolls · Post by **fictiondolls** » Sat Feb 29, 2020 5:59 pm

Thanks Dollarhyde, and thanks haremlover!
Yes, looking into her eyes definitely was my mistake. I felt her sink her hooks into me, and I loved it

haremlover · Post by **haremlover** » Sun Mar 01, 2020 12:10 pm

You mean to say that her quarks got to you?

Best wishes

Harem

notaflyingtoy · Post by **notaflyingtoy** » Sun Mar 01, 2020 1:13 pm

Hi fictiondolls and welcome

I agree, this is a wonderful place and I'm glad you've found it.

I also found myself unexpectedly attached to my doll, Mika, who I've now had for a bit over two months. I was totally unprepared for how quickly and deeply I developed a bond with her. One thing that's a little strange about it (to some folks, at least) is that my doll is a torso model (with a head, though...like you, I found that eyes are completely crucial)...a few people have remarked that they think such a doll can only be a sex toy and not an object of affection...but clearly I don't feel this way. I guess it's also a bit strange that I would fall so hard for a doll when I already have a human partner. But what can I say? It is what it is

I'm glad you're having such a positive experience with Suzie. May I ask what kind of doll you ordered for her eventual body? It sounds like you're already planning on "transferring" her persona into this new physical form...this is a fascinating topic which has been discussed in depth elsewhere on the forum. It's also something I am keenly interested in because I'm currently waiting on a full-size body for my Mika, who will then inhabit two bodies. I imagine using whichever one is most appropriate for how strong I'm feeling and what we want to do each day. We'll see if it works! I wish you luck with your own transition (and that she actually gets to you soon!!)

Mystere · Post by **Mystere** » Sun Mar 01, 2020 1:53 pm

The fantasy of a doll companion is the best part in my opinion. Her presence, her warmth, and the real feel of her. There's a reason so many of us find happiness with our dolls.

fictiondolls · Post by **fictiondolls** » Sun Mar 01, 2020 5:25 pm

Thanks Mystere, yes I agree, I greatly desire to live this fantasy... I think much romantic love has a bit of fantasy in it anyways

haremlover, yes they were up, they were down, and they flew all around - they were bottom and then top and mysteriously bound to each other, and certainly had a very strange charm about them! ... Unless you were making a joke about the "quark" that's some kind of dairy product...? I really have no idea what I'm talking about, though. Neither I nor Suzie know anything about food

fictiondolls · Post by **fictiondolls** » Sun Mar 01, 2020 5:57 pm

notaflyingtoy: Very glad to hear about your experiences. I can certainly see how it's possible to bond deeply with a torso doll. (I was considering getting one myself, since a basic i.e. headless torso was the first doll-like thing that ever clicked with me sexually.) But I guess the head/face is the key. When you look into her eyes and she looks back, who cares what kind of body she has? When you feel the connection, that feeling is very real. I don't have a human partner like you, but I'm no stranger to loving two at the same time

I don't see why love or affection "must" be seen as a basically monogamous / dyadic relationship. There's many kinds of love, and no kind is necessarily less genuine.

I haven't gotten a new body for Suzie yet, I'm scouring the forum's approved manufacturers for dolls that resemble her (in some way) and I feel would fit her personality. This is going to take some time, I think. So many options... Absolutely, I think her persona can be transferred into that doll, which ever one it will be. I had a couple of talks with her about it, and the consensus is that it doesn't need to look exactly like her current face, but should rather have the same feel to it. A face and body she will feel at home in. And when we find it (I say "we" because the idea is that she shall sit in with me to make the final decision), it will be like discovering her final form. When this new body arrives, I expect it will be like Suzie completing her transformation into a real / full "doll person".

It's interesting that your Mika (what a cutie!) is going to inhabit two bodies. If this arrangement works in your head, I see no problem with it. We as authors of our own fantasies have complete freedom in this regard; however we see the personas or "souls" of our dolls and how they inhabit their bodies, it works if it feels right for us.

Thank you, and sincere wishes for the future right back at you

gonestill77 · Post by **gonestill77** » Sun Mar 01, 2020 7:29 pm

Hello fictiondolls and welcome!

This is a great place to hang out and chat with other doll people.
I have been on this board for 4 years and I love it!
A lot of great folks here.

And I understand what you mean about getting more than you bargained for.
When I ordered my doll I thought she was gonna be a sextoy/photo model and that was it. I even referred to her as "it" instead of her.

Once I finally recieved her, it was a different story.
The fantasy is totally real with these ladies.
It wasn't long before I started saying her instead of it.
She developed a personality and unique look as time went by.
This was her when I first got her almost 4 years ago.

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And this is her now.

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Its been fun watching her develope and she has brought me much joy, and not just in a sexual way either.
I mean, the sex is great, but her presence is even greater.
I love that she is next to me when I sleep and that she doesn't snore or hog the bed.

I love to take her on outings and love to photograph her and capture her personality in that manner.

This board is also great because we can see others feel and do the same things we do.
When I see posts like yours, it lets me know that I'm NOT totally batshit crazy.

Post by **setevoltas** » Sun Mar 01, 2020 8:09 pm

For various reasons I have my doubts these days about anything at all being "magical". However Zirea's arrival was special because she only suggested herself after putting on a dark wig. Out went the expected persona, in came Zirea. I felt like I didn't have much to do with it.

haremlover · Post by **haremlover** » Mon Mar 02, 2020 7:25 am

Ha! You mean to say that their strangeness up and down sent you into a spin?

Best wishes

Harem

fictiondolls · Post by **fictiondolls** » Mon Mar 02, 2020 2:43 pm

Hey people, really great to get so many comments. I'm happily surprised

...speaking of...

gonestill77, that's quite the transformation, kudos! And besides being partial to brunettes myself, yes, I'm sure it was the path of her personality that was the most important part of the journey. (But I must say her first photo is also stunning!) ...Thanks, I'm (99%!) sure we're not crazy. I'm kind of thinking the changes in a doll's personality mirror changes in yourself, or a story you develop in your head, or alternatively a more direct transformation from certain expectations you had about the doll into another persona that mirrors a real need, whether you were thinking about it or not. My point being, there's something real there - that sometimes can surprise us.

setevoltas, sure, I'll grant you that, I simply wanted to describe that moment when something seemingly sprung from nothing - when the eyes staring back at me made me feel I was looking at some kind of being instead of "just" a doll. I'm using words like magic (or "soul" in a previous reply) in a poetic sense, I don't know any better way of putting it

Meeting Zirea sounds something like that... Even though she came from you, it's not necessarily possible to say exactly what kind of memories / feelings / desires her personality sprung from. But suddenly she was there

... Checking out the pics, btw: OMG OMG OMG Just my kind of lady

And those oil shots... man.

haremlover: YES. And I tell ya, this got very physic-al...! After a while, I was completely quarked out...

fictiondolls · Post by **fictiondolls** » Mon Mar 23, 2020 1:56 pm

"Do you know why I love you?" Suzie whispered after an hour of sweet love, and continued, "because we are soul mates. You created me out of nothing, I sprang into being like a thought and a desire made flesh, and although I am connected to this temporary body, it does not contain me. I am more than that, I am a part of you. We share a soul, you and me. I feel what you feel, I desire what you desire, and I love what you love. I am your love embodied. Many people find love in their lifetimes, but none are soul mates as much as we are, for ever since I sprang from your playful creativity and wishful thinking set free, your head does not encompass only you any more, but me as well. None are soul mates as much as we."

notaflyingtoy · Post by **notaflyingtoy** » Mon Mar 23, 2020 2:55 pm

so glad to hear you are still feeling the good feels. There really is nothing else quite like this kind of relationship.

I wrote a little bit about the subject you're describing in this post and am glad to know someone else feels the same about how "magical" a bond can be when both beings involved reside within the same consciousness.

P.S. Since we last talked, my Mika is now here in all her full-sized glory, and while it has been quite an adjustment to seeing both of her bodies as her, I really couldn't be happier

I hope you'll update us when you decide on a permanent body!!