I really wish there was a way to assemble all of "DR. Goldfoot"'s commentaries. They/he helped me put getting my doll and reasons for getting a doll in a personal perspective for me. I got Leyna back in May or early June 2003, I don't recall at this moment, but each time and every time I am with her or see her/it, I can't help but feel some connection with her...sometimes when I go to my closet that she is hanging in, she startles(sp?) me. Then I give her a hug, or caress and I can't help but smile.
When I'm in the mood to have sex with her, I don't think or notice the seems or the neck or how more rigid she is than a real woman...I am well aware that she is not a real woman. It is my imagination and the strength or power of my fantasy or intensity of my physical need mingled with my emotional need at that moment I am with my doll that determines how real that moment in time is.
I know Leyna's breast don't feel real but they are the best I have in hand at the moment and far more real than "blow-up dolls" breasts. Her face is sweet in
my eyes. Her beauty and sheer presence and the unbridled(sp?) freedom I feel with her to caress her and give her love and appreciation for her being there for me as I fantisize she is, the way I would love to give to a real woman, restores and/or re-energizes my heart in a way that if I should find a real woman for me for the rest of my life, that I would/will be able to do the same to and for her.
Nothing artificial will ever duplicate fully, what a real loving woman can provide and bring into a relationship. With a doll there is no real "relationship" but our minds can play out that roll for with a doll.
I'm assuming, in my case, that I will be divorced and single for the rest of my life, and Leyna will help me through. I'm okay with that. I have no problems with that actually. however, I know, the "rest" or "balance" of a so called "full" life is lacking...the "rest" is this, the doll can't really love you back, and the obvious is that you do all the moves. The doll won't do special things for you on her own, like send you a note or balloons to your place of work on your birthday, or get you that special item be it a CD or stereo component or favorite meal or whatever she would know you would like because she loves you and cares for you and wants to do something special to let you know you are loved by at least one person in this world.
The doll will only fulfill your imagination and physical needs. And all that is still up to you and your ability to put them in action with your doll.
All that is a divorced single mans perspective. If I should meet up with a wonderful woman some day, I hope she is as infactuated with Leyna as I am and lets "us" keep her/it. That would be great! Then I could join the group of loving couples with at least one special "doll" she and I love to share and play with like the other couples do. Who knows?